so tired

Hi i´m a fan of  "awkard" the program of MTV and of the book  "the perkf of being a wallflower" so i noticed that in both things the principal character writes to someone or something that they didn't know so i think (because i write others blog buy about fiction ) that maybe it would be  good for me startting to write about how i feel about the thing i'm living.
Like you notice i am not from Englad or from USA or any other country that the official laungue is english, i  just love it and some day this gorgeus laungue will be my job but i need to practice ande beacuase my friends and  i hate the english teacher that teach English i transfer myself to French and i really don't like it . Is not that is a band languague or something like that is just that i  really don't feel it but i will be stuck with it for the next years and this one, and because of that i enter into a English school on Saturdays but before i entered i had to do an exam and my result was intermediate and that makes me very mad at so i have to practice.
Well i am just like all the girls, i am not tall, i´m don't have great hair, i dotn´t have a great body but i always get attencion sometimes  good attencion but sometimes bad and thats the problem.
Last year i was beeing bully and was super hard for me because was in facebook , and just because a stupid rumor about me sabotaging all my group to be the pet of one teaher. Well the point is that my parents  talk to the guiding in my school and that sttoped but everyone at my school know and my group style hate me and don't talk to me in the school years that was difficult buy that was not a problem because i had them my best friend s Patrick and Sam (i didn't write their real name obviously) and they were great with me. BUT this year i feel very bad around them i love them but is just that they change so much. Sometimes they are really mean to me and i feel like i did something wrong and maybe i did. Before the school year and first three months of classes i was in a singing contests and one of my friend CHARLIE (i love him but he is gay)  too, and ther i meet great people it was a online contest so i was always at my computer and some of the contestas became  good friends to me (i meet some of them in real life) and maybe i stoped to see Patrick and Sam and things like that, and maybe the other reason is because i don´t know  but i am kind of a nerd i have good grades maybe better than them, i have more friend than them because just my group hates me  and my other classemates kind of likes me, and i get the attention and they are the kind of person that want to be like the plastics from mean girls but they are not them so they are starting to be very mean with me and make feel bad and they are also so lazy they are always asking me for the homework and that makes me so mad because i literally i die to do a good homework and they just ask me for mine and is very easy, I don´t know have change in them i really don´t know the only person, that i like to be with is Jenna the elementary bff of Sam is extrange but se feels te way i do about Sam, Patrick and Josh (he is a gay friend tat is part of my group of friends now) seriously she and me have become a very close friend other reason to Sam to hate me  :;( . but i can´t let go my firendship with Sam and Patrick because together did so many thing and passed  bad momments to and this will be my last year with them because i will  be in other group the next year so is very difficult not to feel bad.
And then is  my boyfriend is name is Charlie he is not a cute guy or attractive one but he has something that makes me feel special or had. He and I broke up last year and this year we get back together after a lot of problem tat we had  because i know i will sound very  presumed but i have many suitor ugly ones but i have, so it was a problem but he fight for me and i think i am happy because lately i don´t feel the same spark that i felt last year, and there are some guys that caugt my attention like  Brand or James, but Brad is really the one that bothers me because he became so close tome cause Patrick makes me feel bad i started to talk to Brad who is (i know it will sound extrange but my school is very tiny) the guy friend of many of my ex boyfriends. He is so cool i really like but he  wants to get back with her ex grilfriend and he only sees me as a frien and that´s good no???...
I have a boyfriend who loves and is thank full to be with me so why i feel this way maybe i have so much to think and do and te worst thing that is true. I have tons of homework and one stupid teacher kick me out of his class because i was talking and that is not true so i have to beg him to let me in again think that i really hate so maybe i should go back to do my homework or to sleep.
Well this is my life and my problems see you soon .